It's been a while since we have blogged on here, we are so sporadic partly because it seems nothing is happening. I should say nothing that we can see. We are still here and still striving to draw closer to God. That's where we are on this journey.
We have not been on health insurance for almost a year now. We have had an allergy type cold once during that entire time and that was it. It has been a miracle none of us has had any major illness or injury. Friday, JP made the kids scrambled eggs for breakfast. They were barely through eating when Daniel starting breaking out in a rash. Daniel has suffered from eczema since he was a baby but it has not flared up in over 2 years. He has complained of a tummy ache lately and I could see a connection to him drinking milk with his meals and his tummy hurting. So a week ago, I stopped giving him milk and his complaints got fewer while his appetite increased. Then Friday. He still has the rash. We have been giving him Benadryl (only when we see itching or complaining) since Friday night when his whole body was covered with the rash. Right now it has improved greatly but is still there. We get on JP's insurance in two weeks so I called today to make an appointment with an allergist. In the meantime, we are not giving him anything with eggs, milk and to be on the safe side peanut butter in it. We went to the grocery store and got some foods that we know are safe until we see the doctor. I do not want to aggravate the situation until then.
Since, Friday I have had a tough time emotionally. I have bee allergies and have had an anaphylaxis reaction as a child. I was so stressed out Friday when JP went to work, because I wasn't sure how bad it was going to get. It peaked about 11:30 PM right as JP got home from work, we didn't have any Benadryl so he ran back out to get some. It took him an hour to get back. We didn't get in bed until after 1:30 AM. The entire weekend we watched him closely. It was very stressful. We are still dealing with it but he is a whole lot better and probably won't have a reaction worse than the one he already has had since we are avoiding the foods we suspect are causing the problem.
I have also dealt with the spiritually significance of all this, this weekend. If our trust is in God why am I so worried over this situation. I was reading in my devotion Bible the Scripture in Mark where Jesus calms the storm. The disciples had Jesus in the boat with them yet they felt abandoned and scared. When we are a Christian, Jesus is even closer to us so why do we feel scared and abandoned. Jesus rebuked the disciples and said "Where is your faith?" They had seen Jesus work miracles before and so have we. So I have been asking myself-"where is your faith?" I have to admit that I am still wrestling with this. I know worrying is wrong but I find myself falling into it. I just had to begin to pray- "Lord, I believe, but help my unbelief". And I have to trust that He will answer that pray.
I found a lot to praise the Lord about during this situation though. I praised Him for Daniel's protection through this ordeal. I thanked Him for a car and money to buy medicine. I thanked Him I wasn't alone but had a loving husband who came home after work on a Friday night physically able to go and get medicine. I thanked Him this happened now when we are very close to being on insurance so we will not have a lot of medical bills. I thanked Him that we had money to buy extra groceries for Daniel to eat these next two weeks. These are all things we sometimes take for granted but God is good and although I am still stressed and worrying, He is right here and taking care of us anyway.
